Feeling Like Your Efforts Are Never Enough
Do you recall the moment in the movie, Schindlerâ€™s List, when Liam Neeson said he could have done more? It went like this (from http://www.imdb.com/title/tt0108052/quotes):
Oskar Schindler: I could have got more out. I could have got more. I don’t know. If I’d just… I could have got more.
Itzhak Stern: Oskar, there are eleven hundred people who are alive because of you. Look at them.
Oskar Schindler: If I’d made more money… I threw away so much money. You have no idea. If I’d just…
Itzhak Stern: There will be generations because of what you did.
Oskar Schindler: I didn’t do enough!
Itzhak Stern: You did so much.
[Schindler looks at his car]
Oskar Schindler: This car. Goeth would have bought this car. Why did I keep the car? Ten people right there. Ten people. Ten more people.
[removing Nazi pin from lapel]
Oskar Schindler: This pin. Two people. This is gold. Two more people. He would have given me two for it, at least one. One more person. A person, Stern. For this.
Oskar Schindler: I could have gotten one more person… and I didn’t! And I… I didn’t!
Feed My Starving Children
An army of volunteersâ€“877 strongâ€“donned hairnets and fearlessly went to work despite looking like human cloud-heads. There was loud, upbeat, Christian music on the speakers, yellow T-shirted leaders keeping the errant in line, and a feeling of pure loving energy.
The quest was in front of us: bag and pack 150,000 meals for children facing hunger around the world and… we felt like it was entirely possible.
Huge containers of rice, soy, powdered vitamins, and dehydrated vegetables sat around the room like mini-mountains that needed conquering. Tables, neatly organized, held funnels, scales, bags, and heat sealers. It was choreographed chaos at its best.
My husband and I had signed up for the last two-hour stint, and we were ready to serve. Friends of oursâ€”Doug and Sharon Sillâ€”asked if we would join their team as a couple of â€œTeam Sillâ€ members were unable to attend. â€œSure!â€ we said in unison.
Before bagging, we were shown two videos. One talked about starving children and how the bagged food was saving lives. The other video listed basic instructions on how to place the ingredients and hygienically handle the bags from placing under the funnel to sealing.
Maybe we were on the remedial â€œspecial needsâ€ team, but we struggled. Placing the bag under the tube looked so easy on the video, but that was not the case as we fumbled along. The order of food placement was to be: one packed scoop of vitamins, one scoop of dehydrated veggies, one cup of soy, and one cup of rice. The rice was the equalizer. If the bag weighed too much, take out some rice. If the bag was too light, add some rice. Simple, right? Not so much. My husband kept tossing the soy in the bag as soon as it went under the funnel. Then the other two gentlemen would look at each other with faces that said, Did we put our stuff in yet? Confusion ensued.
The brave woman doing the bagging said, â€œIt should be vitamins, veggies, soy, rice. One, two, three, four!â€ The men would nod and then do exactly what they had been doing before.
I was the rice lady. Significant responsibility! No matter how hard I tried to be consistent with my cup of rice, more often than not they had to adjust for weight. Argh! I kept thinking we were wasting time that could be spent making more and more and more bags. There were starving children counting on us! As I pondered this, my husband would toss in another cup of soy, and weâ€™d be messed up again.
The time flew, and we were told our goal had been reached. It was time to stop. As we helped disassemble and clean the area, I felt good knowing I had contributed a teeny tiny bit to addressing the world hunger crisis.
On Sunday Our Pastor, Linda Friesen, Gave The Final Tallies
- 2016 LAKES AREA MOBILEPACK RESULTS
- 877 VOLUNTEERS
- 792 BOXES FILLED
- 171, 072 MEALS PACKED
- 468 KIDS FED FOR 1 YEAR!
At first, I was thrilled that we had exceeded the goal in every area. But then I sobered. Only 468 children fed for a year? That Schindler feeling came over me. We have to do more! We can do more! After giving the results, Pastor Friesen announced Hosanna has already contracted to be a Feed My Starving Children mobile pack location in April 2017. The fundraising is to start immediately.
As I drove home with a trunk full of groceries, I felt stabs of guilt. I usually have these occur after church, but on this day they were bigger. Louder. My life has been blessed in countless ways. How can I save the world?
I can, however, do small things that may make a difference. There is another line from Schindlerâ€™s list that brought me some peace,
“Whoever saves one life, saves the world entire.”
One life at a time? Letâ€™s do this.